"And it's hard to be ___ party when I feel like an open wound" ("this is me trying" lyric)
19A
Modern pastoral aesthetic
21A
Like the leaves of a neglected houseplant
23A
A pet one can be irritating
24A
Send out
25A
"'Was the Astor Place ___ Haunted?' and Other Thoughts on Its Closing" (New York Times article)
27A
Queen's mate
29A
Oh, in 47-Down
30A
Healing or health preceder
32A
Rooster sauce
34A
Unit for an apothecary
36A
Portable shelter often carried by yaks
37A
Soda that had a limited edition berries and cream flavor due to... checks notes a TikTok sound posted by... checks notes again "The Adventure Zone" podcaster Justin McElroy
41A
Jet Ski competitor
45A
Grown up elver
46A
Beauty product that may include salt or sugar
48A
You might need to catch someone's
49A
"This Is How You Lose the Time War" author El-Mohtar
51A
Reacted loudly to the doorbell, say
53A
Deets
54A
Legal to play, in a way
57A
That, in Tijuana
58A
Sister of Euterpe and Clio
59A
Guy who's such a poser?
61A
Cellar features
62A
Axe
63A
Editor's "nevermind"
64A
Issue prefix
65A
GRE org.
Down
1D
When to have some gunpowder
2D
Loser of an 80s format war
3D
Create an ombre effect, say
4D
Blew one's own horn, perhaps
5D
Jerks
6D
Like some meals or characters
7D
Broccoli ___
8D
"The Half of It" director Wu
9D
What runs in D.C.
10D
Food for leftists?
11D
Rhubarb units
12D
___ reactor (technology in "Iron Man")
13D
Period replacement, once
15D
Eponymous album containing a cover of "Jumpin' Jack Flash"
20D
Website providing lyric annotations
22D
Uptight sort
26D
Common early challenge prizes on "Survivor"
28D
Left a typo in, perhaps
31D
Pet with a sitter?
33D
"E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial" publisher
35D
Group that includes a bear, a rooster, and a badger in a Disney adaptation
37D
More valuable
38D
Suckerfish
39D
Take on a new role
40D
"13 Going on 30" actor Mark
42D
Patronized
43D
Carbon ___ (projects that may involve replacing cookstoves)
44D
Peter whose late in life roles include Anton Ego "Ratatouille" and Pope Paul III in "The Tudors"